Since I was young,
I was never close to my biological mother.
She faulted me in not being born
the eldest grandson,
While all the eldest welcomed me
in celebrations and jubilation.
Since I could remember,
Daddy had always been my protector,
He listened to my problems,
worked hard to change the way we lived,
For my safety of attempted abused,
he made sure I had a room all to myself.
Since I could recall,
I was always surrounded by boys,
I have three younger brothers
and much later,
a younger sister, Jac.
Since I secured a scholarship to study
I learned that no matter how smart
or beautiful you are,
There are so many others who are above
Daddy thought me right,
"Never ever think the world of yourself when
you have yet to see the world!"
My dad always told me
how I was his lucky charm
and in many ways
since I worked very hard in whatever
I became more skilled at making
my own money
and very good at saving them too.
My dad used to call me,
" The Mini Bank"
Since Dad died,
being the eldest and feeling obligated,
I took over the role of my late dad
to take care of my family,
a mother and four siblings.
I always worked very hard
as ever since young,
I was thought to be independent ,
innovative, self motivated, self less...
a few good traits that will
lead to disasters in my life.
I sacrificed for my family until
I gotten married at twenty seven
to a man I do not even love
but thought he loved me.
I paid for my wedding,
including the dowries to my mother.
I suffered a lot but my mother
and siblings never do enough
to help me,
After all that I have sacrificed for them,
I do feel betrayed.
I was disowned and abandoned.
After 12 years of pure hell,
I regain my freedom and peace of mind
together with both my kids,
he and his family took all the
material stuffs from me.
It was worth it.
Do I feel betrayed?
Not really as I still have both
my daughters who are my life,
They are worthy of many millions more.
Again, I was " The Mini Bank"
Then I met Mr. Shakira
and he is more than what I dare asked
He is my long lost soul mate,
this is the first time I am deeply in love.
Since July last year, he was head hunted
to work in Malaysia,
we both worked very hard to keep the
family united and strong.
in every way.
The truth is
every Chinese New Year,
I would ask my daughters and
if I should reunite with
my mother and my siblings
and finally, last October,
we all went out for dinner.
We paid for the hefty bill.
To cut it short,
mom asked to borrow USD10K as my sister
is in trouble, she has her businesses.
We ended up loaning my sister USD10K.
It was all our savings at that time.
As of today,
we still have not gotten a cent back,
Mr. Shakira does not loose sleep over it
but I do as I am so tired of being
" The Mini Bank" !
The above is what had been making me feel depressed.
October was the reunion by December,
I was broke.
Yes, Mr. Shakira and I were scammed by my sister.
I guess my mother was not so innocent too.
for the first time,
Mr. Shakira and I had quarrelled.
Fortunately we grew stronger since then
honestly, I am tired of being taken for a ride.